I Feel Weird
Yet again I am weird, all my life I had to hear that I had to adjust to fit in. That I needed to adjust to make "love" work but it made me feel sad. I was in a relationship but yet I felt sad because I did not know who I was. I wanted to share my life so much with someone that I changed myself to be more appealing to others, hoping that eventually that person would accept me no matter what, but it didn't happen. I filled that void of a broken relationship with a friend, one I thought would understand me and accept me but I messed up and ended up being the bad guy while I am very much the opposite. I eventually found out that I was only there for his comfort and I got disposed of in a nasty way.
Now free from any commitment and picking myself up from all the bad experiences, I faced a new challange. Which was thinking for myself without anyone saying what I can or cannot do. I accepted my weirdness: I like blue hair, I love weird hats (specially with ears), I am very social but yet I prefer to be quiet and at home, I can come of as not very smart but it's a defence mode and I am sensetive. I often space out to live in my own world and I see moving images when people tell stories. I love surprises and spontanious actions but most of all I like my inner child, one that has dreams, goals, creativity and aspirations how crazy they may seem. Which I will follow without regrets.
Being here and on Konnekting opened up a whole new world of accepting people from all different walks of life, who I respect and who respect me with all my weirdness. I feel accepted, appreciated and most of all i am starting to develope friendships that are ba<x>sed on much more meaningfull ba<x>ses then looks. I love who I am and I love being surrounded by people that understand it and it seems like it's heading towards adventures that I always craved for.
Now free from any commitment and picking myself up from all the bad experiences, I faced a new challange. Which was thinking for myself without anyone saying what I can or cannot do. I accepted my weirdness: I like blue hair, I love weird hats (specially with ears), I am very social but yet I prefer to be quiet and at home, I can come of as not very smart but it's a defence mode and I am sensetive. I often space out to live in my own world and I see moving images when people tell stories. I love surprises and spontanious actions but most of all I like my inner child, one that has dreams, goals, creativity and aspirations how crazy they may seem. Which I will follow without regrets.
Being here and on Konnekting opened up a whole new world of accepting people from all different walks of life, who I respect and who respect me with all my weirdness. I feel accepted, appreciated and most of all i am starting to develope friendships that are ba<x>sed on much more meaningfull ba<x>ses then looks. I love who I am and I love being surrounded by people that understand it and it seems like it's heading towards adventures that I always craved for.
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