I Believe In Signs

I saw 2 death signs of 2 friends that I cared this year in different time. They had passed away. It was hard to accept. I even did nothing for 3 days before my friend gone. Last month I saw once a new death sign but I acted I didn't see. This month I see it again, several times. It gives me fukking stressful like shyte thinking I'm not fukking ready to loose this person physically. I even still grieving of the loss my friends like wtf I hate this fukking shyte situation really