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I Dont Have A Place To Call Home

Not sure if this is interesting or not, but it's something about me that makes me somewhat unique.

When people ask me, "Where are you from?", I generally reply with, "Everywhere!".
This is cool, but simultaneously sort of sad. I do like the fact that I've been able to see so many places, and meet so many different types of people, but I also feel like I don't have a place that I consider home.

I'm twenty-one, and have lived in five different states so far (Oregon, Illinois, Maryland, Virginia, Texas). Within these states I've lived in twelve cities. So, which one do I consider home?

I do believe I have the soul of a traveler, and meant to travel a lot during this lifetime, but I feel so foreign everywhere I go. This has affected me so much, that I've vowed that if I ever have children, I'm buying one house, and staying for the rest of my life, so they won't have to experience the same loneliness. They can have a place to call home, somewhere they are familiar with.

Do you know how hard it is sustaining relationships with people, when your life is always pick up and go? I do believe this is the exact reason why I have such a hard time making friends in adulthood, because there is always this sub-conscious thought of, 'I won't be here long, so there's no point in even trying'.

I'm really hoping to settle somewhere soon. I do really like where I am now (Texas), but I'm planning on moving to back to Virginia for a bit, and possibly returning here in the future. Just don't know if I'll be returning to Dallas or Houston. I've lived in both, really like both, and have family in both cities.
Heartlander · 80-89, M
I know the feeling well.

I did grow up in a home, a small home town where everyone at least looked familiar. A dozen aunts and uncles and cousins. Mostly the same classmates for 12 years. I left at 21, lived in different places, traveled a lot. Even after 20 years in my present place it's still not home.

Somewhere deep in my soul was the need to one day return home. Like "OK, I'm back." But while I was gone everyone at home died or moved away, and the close friends and cousins are no longer close and it's no longer home except in my heart and soul.

I think we just have to create our own home. Pick out a place or an attitude, drive in a few stakes and declare it your home. And make it a place where your soul wants to be and anchor your heart there.
originalGOS · 26-30, F
Thanks for sharing. I hope you've found home since then
Jksooner · 46-50, M
Oklahoma, Florida, Maryland, Kentucky, Louisiana and Colorado myself
Jksooner · 46-50, M
@gettingovershit: Columbia
originalGOS · 26-30, F
oh yeah, much better than silver spring
Jksooner · 46-50, M
@gettingovershit: I'll take your word for it. Columbia and ellicot city are my experience
SW-User
I have no idea how to answer this question either. Lived in three countries and from a fourth originally
Lolco · 36-40, M
Are your parents military?
originalGOS · 26-30, F
Nope
Alexsw · 70-79, M
interesting question

 
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