I Am Interested In The Interesting

I love seeing beautiful people in the present just comfortable in there mind. Like coming across someone who has flawless skin, perfect body type, just comfortable not really introspecting anything. They are just ready and accepting of whatever it seems. I don't approach those people. I came from over thinking every possible thing and I have seen a lot of pain and I just don't want that to be a part of them. I have learned so much about self confidence and following your own truth. I realized I generate all of my own feelings, biases and perceptions and it's all really personal. To get close with one of those people, them realizing how great I am, I feel they might go through that process I went through. Years of confusion, lonelyness, feeling like you are always on the edge. Something that would seem completely unnatural for them. I think we all strive for the same thing but in different ways. I lack respect.