I Am Tired Of Playing The Blame Game

You can't win. When it gets like this. Even if I own up to my part every time..if I have a painful feeling I'm blamed for it or told her pain exists immediately after. I can't go into detail. I need someone to talk to who knows unusual experiences bilocating things disappearing and reappearing things. Miracles. Universe secrets. Artistic person. Poetic person. Imperfect person. Someone to talk to no thanks men. I actually do wish I was straight or could count on a guy to not bump heads or to just be a friend to me. Yet even if that was something u could find let alone find on internet I only want to talk to a woman now. And not even now cuz.. Well I'm going to sleep now I hope