I Am Losing Myself

It's Been Months… And Still No Change.. I Still Love Her.. I Still Want To Be With Her.. I Don't Feel Age Plays A Part In This Situation.. I Feel That It's Just The Fact That I've Never Opened Up And Been So Vulnerable For Anyone And She Comes Along And Breaks Down Every Barrier.. Every Wall.. Every Guard That I've Ever Had Up… Then She Leaves.. No Goodbye.. No Anything.. Just Me Confused, Thinking Back.. Trying To Put The Pieces Together.. Wondering.. Where Did We Go Wrong.. When Did Everything Change.. What Could I Have Done Differently.. To Make Her Stay… And It's Hurting Worse Because.. As I'm Looking Back… I Can't Seem To Find What It Is That I Did To Make You Want To Leave With No Explanation.. With Not Even A Goodbye… Am I Really That Bad Of A Person.. Am I Really That Hard To Love That You Didn't Even Care To Say You Gave Up On Me.. Instead You Said You Love Me.. But Wouldn't Tell Me Why.. And It Makes Me Wonder Did You Not Want Tell Me Why You Loved Me Because Deep Down You Know That You Didn't? *Deep Sigh*😔 It Just Makes Me Sad And It Hurts So Bad To The Point Where I Don't Even Want To Feel.. Because If “Everyone Is Going To Hurt You”… And If This Is What Love Is… I Never Want To Love Again😒💔😭