I Am Neurotic
Yes I Am... Neurotic.
Now most poeple don't even know what that means. So let me enlighten you a little.
Although neurotics come in all shapes and sizes (very few that we like), there are a few overarching characteristics which visible if you are neurotic.
General anxiety - This covers pessimism, self-doubt, dread, and other nervousness. A veritable barrel of fun.
Social ineptitude - This covers awkwardness, overanalysis of situations and people, and conversational tools like sarcasm or self-effacement.
Obsessive-compulsive behavior - This covers counting, stacking, obsessing, nail-biting, and all your other favorite habits.
General anxiety. Check. Social ineptitude. Check. Obsessive-compulsive. Check check check!!
Self-doubt. Now that is a major problem in my life. I feel so insecure all the time. Are they talking about me? Why are they looking at me? Is there something on my face? Did I dress appropriately? Am I doing enough?
Nervousness. Ugh. Um, new people, crowd, public speaking... make me having stomachache.
Sarcasm! Hell yeah!
Obsessive-compulsive. This is very very very unnecessarily annoying. Always putting my seatbelt on. Always saying the same prayer for years. The L and R on headphones or headset must be followed. Always turn off the Air Conditioner before killing my car engine. Still uses my knuckles to count months, I don't remember which month have 30 or 31 days, except February, duh. I count when I brush my teeth so every tooth get the fair amount of brushing. I always forgot did I lock my car door or not. The song in my computer is named accordingly, correctly and perfectly with "Artist - Title" structures, if they're not, like "www.something.com-Artist_Title_title" or having misspell, I will change it to my structures. Whether I'm writing or typing, the first alphabet must be capitalized, no misspelling whatsover, after all Microsoft have grammar and spelling check for a reason and EP doesn't have one which pis.ses me off (EP star the word p-i-s-s-e-s, and I don't know why, so I trick EP, hence the dot in between. And I'm only telling you this because I don't want you to think I misstype. See neurotic?). I can't stand that little red dots with number inside, yeah notifications bagde, even if I don't have time to open or read it, I would still open it just so that red annoying bubble would be gone, vanish. Its whole existence annoys me! I still could go on and on, but enough said.
I wish I could just be confident with myself. Always doubting is frustating and tiring. I wanna have the I don't give a f-ck attitude. I'm still working with my public speaking, not that nervous anymore, but still not really comfortable doing it. Sarcasms? Come on the world is better with sarcastic remarks. And the last characteristic, I cannot do anything about it. it's just bad bad bad random habit.
Now most poeple don't even know what that means. So let me enlighten you a little.
Although neurotics come in all shapes and sizes (very few that we like), there are a few overarching characteristics which visible if you are neurotic.
General anxiety - This covers pessimism, self-doubt, dread, and other nervousness. A veritable barrel of fun.
Social ineptitude - This covers awkwardness, overanalysis of situations and people, and conversational tools like sarcasm or self-effacement.
Obsessive-compulsive behavior - This covers counting, stacking, obsessing, nail-biting, and all your other favorite habits.
General anxiety. Check. Social ineptitude. Check. Obsessive-compulsive. Check check check!!
Self-doubt. Now that is a major problem in my life. I feel so insecure all the time. Are they talking about me? Why are they looking at me? Is there something on my face? Did I dress appropriately? Am I doing enough?
Nervousness. Ugh. Um, new people, crowd, public speaking... make me having stomachache.
Sarcasm! Hell yeah!
Obsessive-compulsive. This is very very very unnecessarily annoying. Always putting my seatbelt on. Always saying the same prayer for years. The L and R on headphones or headset must be followed. Always turn off the Air Conditioner before killing my car engine. Still uses my knuckles to count months, I don't remember which month have 30 or 31 days, except February, duh. I count when I brush my teeth so every tooth get the fair amount of brushing. I always forgot did I lock my car door or not. The song in my computer is named accordingly, correctly and perfectly with "Artist - Title" structures, if they're not, like "www.something.com-Artist_Title_title" or having misspell, I will change it to my structures. Whether I'm writing or typing, the first alphabet must be capitalized, no misspelling whatsover, after all Microsoft have grammar and spelling check for a reason and EP doesn't have one which pis.ses me off (EP star the word p-i-s-s-e-s, and I don't know why, so I trick EP, hence the dot in between. And I'm only telling you this because I don't want you to think I misstype. See neurotic?). I can't stand that little red dots with number inside, yeah notifications bagde, even if I don't have time to open or read it, I would still open it just so that red annoying bubble would be gone, vanish. Its whole existence annoys me! I still could go on and on, but enough said.
I wish I could just be confident with myself. Always doubting is frustating and tiring. I wanna have the I don't give a f-ck attitude. I'm still working with my public speaking, not that nervous anymore, but still not really comfortable doing it. Sarcasms? Come on the world is better with sarcastic remarks. And the last characteristic, I cannot do anything about it. it's just bad bad bad random habit.
31-35, F
