I Have Loved Someone Who Did Not Love Me Back

He broke my spirit, he oppressed me, he violated my child, and broke my heart.... All because satan decieved him making him believe that I wanted him like a lover, when I didn't, I mean I liked him but I didn't like him like him....I have forgiven him and even though I've seen him at his worst I still care, because I know the truth and I understand. But I fear that he will always believe the worst of me and that he isn't finished hurting me, so I avoid him....he was my old family doctor, the storm lasted 2 years...That was 3 years ago and I'm still hurting.