Only logged in members can reply and interact with the post.
Join SimilarWorlds for FREE »

I Sometimes Want to Just Give Up

Have you ever felt so lonely and alone in your life? For the people whom I frequently talk to in here, I probably appear as someone who is jolly, doesn't have any problem in life. No, that's not me. I feel like there is a black hole living inside me that sucks out all my happiness. I'm still not over my father's death even if it has already been 2 years then about a month ago, my grandma died due to breast and lung cancer. My younger brother moved out and now lives in a boarding house near his school. My mom has been in the hospital for 2 months now. It's just me and my other grandma in this big house. Big but empty, lonely house. I always have nightmares that wake me up in the middle of the night. I thought of killing myself to end this pain, to dry these endless tears I've been crying, to get rid of these huge responsibilities on my shoulders. I'm tired. Exhausted. Drained. Empty. I'm not like this before, what happened to me?
This page is a permanent link to the reply below and its nested replies. See all post replies »
DysfunctionalLogic
I hope you don't give up! I wouldn't want that for a second. I can relate to a lot of what you say and I'm quite shocked you feel this way.. you do appear Jolly and I like that! i wasnt aware of how you felt & im sorry things are bringing you down and making you feel this way I can't answer what has happened to you but.... I feel I should say that you are an awesome yogurt. my favourite flavour! and you should NEVER give up! EVER. sorry for rambling!!! * hugs *
Thank you, Sam! That's why I am always here on EP. Even if it gets shitty here, there are still people like you who make me smile. I should say that I'm thankful and lucky because I know you. And you're my favorite The Man! Hehe *hugs hugs hugs*
DysfunctionalLogic
* hugs hugs hugs!! hugs all round! They're on the house ;) *
Youre the best! :D
DysfunctionalLogic
nawwww I'm annoying. but I do hope you are okay! seriously :)