I Lost My Husband

I never thought it would hurt this much. We fought all the time. Prolly more than we got along. I wanted to leave and now all I want is for him to come back. My husband died yesterday. One minute he was here and the next he was gone. He drove me nuts, he pissed me off, he made me laugh, I loved him. As much as he frustrated me I love him still. I keep thinking he's going to walk through the door but he never does. I have been listening to his music and looking through his art work. I spend all day at the funeral home. He just turned 40 on the 9th. I am gonna be 35 next week. I don't want to say goodbye yet. Life is not suppose to happen like this. I just don't understand why.

His boss started a go fund me page for service expenses and other bills. I normally don't ask for help. I hate it. If you can donate great but if not maybe u can share the page. Please.

https://www.gofundme.com/s7ex7y8?d=144410164

Please put him in your prayers.

Thank you. Hugs.