I Am Feeling Sad
Today my world became a little emptier, a little lonelier. Someone who I was with for 25-years has gone from this world.
Yesterday, I was thinking about how I've become more introverted with age, and how much the culture has changed to something I don't like. Thought of my family members who are no longer here, and I realized that my own little tribe consisted of myself, my two sons, and my ex husband. These are the four people I feel most relaxed and comfortable with. My inner circle. Even though we parted ways 2-years ago, he was still my family, and always will be. I called him when I had a problem, and he was the only person on the planet who had gone through traumatic events with me.
I'd call or text him, and say, "do you ever miss..." and he would know because he missed it too. He lived it with me for 25-years.
So now one member of my inner circle has gone, and I feel at a loss to know what to do with myself. Death has a way of making you feel like you are in the Twilight Zone.
I can't believe I'll never see him again, or talk to him again, and for all our woes together, he was one of the bravest men I've ever known. He made a difference in the world, so he has left a lasting legacy.
I wish (I always wished) that our marriage could be happy, but it was not to be. Now your light has gone out, and left me in a lonelier world today than it was yesterday.
God speed brave warrior.
Yesterday, I was thinking about how I've become more introverted with age, and how much the culture has changed to something I don't like. Thought of my family members who are no longer here, and I realized that my own little tribe consisted of myself, my two sons, and my ex husband. These are the four people I feel most relaxed and comfortable with. My inner circle. Even though we parted ways 2-years ago, he was still my family, and always will be. I called him when I had a problem, and he was the only person on the planet who had gone through traumatic events with me.
I'd call or text him, and say, "do you ever miss..." and he would know because he missed it too. He lived it with me for 25-years.
So now one member of my inner circle has gone, and I feel at a loss to know what to do with myself. Death has a way of making you feel like you are in the Twilight Zone.
I can't believe I'll never see him again, or talk to him again, and for all our woes together, he was one of the bravest men I've ever known. He made a difference in the world, so he has left a lasting legacy.
I wish (I always wished) that our marriage could be happy, but it was not to be. Now your light has gone out, and left me in a lonelier world today than it was yesterday.
God speed brave warrior.
