I Push People Away
Depression has been an unwelcome companion along the way
It’s just like the Red Queen from Alice in Wonderland, you have to keep moving in order to just stay in the same place. I can cope…as long as I keep moving. If I stop the treadmill drags me back into to the red hot furnace behind me. I can feel the heat as I limp forward but as my sanity leaves so does my grip and I find myself slipping further back towards the furnace.
Finally I shut myself off from the world with a thick la<x>yer of wax, curl up into a pinecone and let myself be dragged back into the furnace. The wax which isolates me from the world protects me from the raging fire and once the flames subside I open up and the seedlings of my former self are released into the wild to try and regain a foothold once more.
…until the next fire
But all those connections are lost, some of them forever
It’s just like the Red Queen from Alice in Wonderland, you have to keep moving in order to just stay in the same place. I can cope…as long as I keep moving. If I stop the treadmill drags me back into to the red hot furnace behind me. I can feel the heat as I limp forward but as my sanity leaves so does my grip and I find myself slipping further back towards the furnace.
Finally I shut myself off from the world with a thick la<x>yer of wax, curl up into a pinecone and let myself be dragged back into the furnace. The wax which isolates me from the world protects me from the raging fire and once the flames subside I open up and the seedlings of my former self are released into the wild to try and regain a foothold once more.
…until the next fire
But all those connections are lost, some of them forever
41-45, M
