I Want to Change My Life
I’d like to improve my spiritual well being.
Feeling extremely down all the time hasn’t served any benefits.I have small moments of euphoria that usually end badly.
But overall,I’ve lived my entire life in gloom and I’m sick of it.I think *trying* to change wouldn’t hurt.
I used to scoff at the idea of meditation but it’s helping me.
Just imagining myself as a small spec in the vast universe.And just as the universe is ‘silent’ and peaceful,I’d like to be too.
I think anyone can find moments of bliss.Despite everything that’s violent and haunting about life,[i]there are always moments where we can find tranquility. [/i]
I’ve changed my eating habits as well.Mostly clean,fresh food that grows from the earth.Seeing it as fuel rather than a luxury to enjoy and constantly think about/crave.It serves its purpose and that’s all there should be to it.
Sad music doesn’t benefit me either.Only reminds me of how dark everything is,and how I’m sinking by the moment.
I’d like to eliminate that too.
My body will always feel tense and strained ,but I can *try* my best to work with what I have.
Think the most important element is a relatively clear mind.Achieving that will be difficult.
As for speech,I don’t talk too much anyway.I left vain and pointless talk months ago.It serves no purpose and keeps you feeling hollow.
Indulging more in valuable speech would be better,though people around my age are lost in their own agendas(which really are recycled thoughts—repetitive words,way of thinking...what’s popular on social media is what people’s lives have merged into.)[Advice for them:Don’t lose your individuality to blend with the masses.]
So as always,I will resort to literature.
Feeling extremely down all the time hasn’t served any benefits.I have small moments of euphoria that usually end badly.
But overall,I’ve lived my entire life in gloom and I’m sick of it.I think *trying* to change wouldn’t hurt.
I used to scoff at the idea of meditation but it’s helping me.
Just imagining myself as a small spec in the vast universe.And just as the universe is ‘silent’ and peaceful,I’d like to be too.
I think anyone can find moments of bliss.Despite everything that’s violent and haunting about life,[i]there are always moments where we can find tranquility. [/i]
I’ve changed my eating habits as well.Mostly clean,fresh food that grows from the earth.Seeing it as fuel rather than a luxury to enjoy and constantly think about/crave.It serves its purpose and that’s all there should be to it.
Sad music doesn’t benefit me either.Only reminds me of how dark everything is,and how I’m sinking by the moment.
I’d like to eliminate that too.
My body will always feel tense and strained ,but I can *try* my best to work with what I have.
Think the most important element is a relatively clear mind.Achieving that will be difficult.
As for speech,I don’t talk too much anyway.I left vain and pointless talk months ago.It serves no purpose and keeps you feeling hollow.
Indulging more in valuable speech would be better,though people around my age are lost in their own agendas(which really are recycled thoughts—repetitive words,way of thinking...what’s popular on social media is what people’s lives have merged into.)[Advice for them:Don’t lose your individuality to blend with the masses.]
So as always,I will resort to literature.
