I Love Cake

it's never the icing in the cake, sweet and delicate, it's never the joy, of sentimental memories, flooding my every thought process, it's always the wake, the bitter protrusion of today, the aching flaws, the bitter resentment, it's never today, it's only now plain like vanilla, bland, without crumble, harsh edges, wishing it was chocolate souffle, wishing today melted like butter, dripping off the canvas of my frightened mind, desiring rainbow sherbet, wishing the array of colors, to blindly, shed sunrise to my day, straight into my veins, mainline this pain, eradicate my life, fill this void, numbness, an array of sunshine, shedding my skin, content within, artificial filling,