I Want to Know What You Fear Most
Myself... Yep. I fear myself.
My whole life (or as much as I can remember) I've had horrible anxiety and depression. You'd think id be used to it by now, know how to cope, but I don't. A few years ago, my depression started getting worse. My anxiety got to the point where I don't go to school anymore.
I was sent to a part hospitalization treatment recently to work on my issues and just got kicked out because I wanted to go home.
And that leads us to where I explain my fear of myself; I fear that I am weak, that I have no self control, and that I'm not even trying to get better.
Not only that, I've been having horrible fleeting thoughts. Immediately after I feel horrible and I mean I know I'd never listen to them but I don't want to be a bad person or hurt anyone and I'm scared I'll lose what little I have left of myself and change.
That probably made no sense at all but whatever.
My whole life (or as much as I can remember) I've had horrible anxiety and depression. You'd think id be used to it by now, know how to cope, but I don't. A few years ago, my depression started getting worse. My anxiety got to the point where I don't go to school anymore.
I was sent to a part hospitalization treatment recently to work on my issues and just got kicked out because I wanted to go home.
And that leads us to where I explain my fear of myself; I fear that I am weak, that I have no self control, and that I'm not even trying to get better.
Not only that, I've been having horrible fleeting thoughts. Immediately after I feel horrible and I mean I know I'd never listen to them but I don't want to be a bad person or hurt anyone and I'm scared I'll lose what little I have left of myself and change.
That probably made no sense at all but whatever.
26-30, F