I Had An Epiphany
In high school, I thought my life would 'instantly' be better once it was over and I was enjoying the college life.
I went to a commuter college (financial reasons) and did not/was not enjoying it. So I looked forward to graduation, and having fun in my free-time, while still working part-time and looking for full time work. I was bored and wished I had people and money so I could do the things that I really wanted to do.
While I was working part-time, and school was behind me, I was mad and upset about how much I hated the retail job that I had been in for [u]nearly 3 years[/u], and looked forward to a better one, making more money.
Well NOW I have the better, full-time job, making twice as much money and I'm still not happy.
I realize that I had [u]nearly 3 years[/u] to be 'happy' with plenty of free-time, as I only worked part-time.
In my thoughts I say, " maybe I'll be happier once I have friends, and/or a boyfriend, and/or my own little family".
Then when that happens, I'll look back on [i][b]this[/b][/i] moment, like I have in the past, and wish I had cherished being single, and childless, just like I should have cherished being a student, having free-time, and only working part-time.
I need to pick myself up and get off my damn ass.
I'm so sick of me right now😐️
Shoulda, coulda, woulda😣
I went to a commuter college (financial reasons) and did not/was not enjoying it. So I looked forward to graduation, and having fun in my free-time, while still working part-time and looking for full time work. I was bored and wished I had people and money so I could do the things that I really wanted to do.
While I was working part-time, and school was behind me, I was mad and upset about how much I hated the retail job that I had been in for [u]nearly 3 years[/u], and looked forward to a better one, making more money.
Well NOW I have the better, full-time job, making twice as much money and I'm still not happy.
I realize that I had [u]nearly 3 years[/u] to be 'happy' with plenty of free-time, as I only worked part-time.
In my thoughts I say, " maybe I'll be happier once I have friends, and/or a boyfriend, and/or my own little family".
Then when that happens, I'll look back on [i][b]this[/b][/i] moment, like I have in the past, and wish I had cherished being single, and childless, just like I should have cherished being a student, having free-time, and only working part-time.
I need to pick myself up and get off my damn ass.
I'm so sick of me right now😐️
Shoulda, coulda, woulda😣
