I Don't Forgive and Forget Easily

I woke up this morning and I think that I finally forgave him! I'm so happy like the world was taken off my shoulders! But it has taken me over two years to get here! I was really hurt. Do I want to see him again and get hurt by him all over...No! But I know that I will see him in the ER again......I wish that I could tell him so much without getting tongue tied. And hope that we can both move on. But after all that's been said and done I don't see how we could ever be happy with one another. Maybe that's what forgiveness is for.