Sometimes i wish

I often wish i had a skill, i don't mean a job skill, i am a truck driver and i am pretty good (not great) at my job so i have that skill. I mean a skill that people would take notice of, musician, poet, novelist, actor...anything even if it was on a very small scale. I am well aware that most people who are good at these things put a lot of hours of work and practice into developing that skill or talent but i also believe that in itself is a skill. It takes a special person to dedicate ones self to honing these talents. I don't have that skill either, that is why i am 55 years old and i don't even have a hobby. I am not someone who is willing to accept being okay at something, if i can't be really good i give up. I have taken music lessons from multiple instructors (sorry i wasted their time) but i never had the drive to become a passable guitar player or pianist, i occasionally write some poetry and songs, they are really, really bad, i have never tried acting but let's face it acting requires more than just skill, it also requires a look and ugly is not the look they want, i once tried writing a short story for a class in school, the teacher said it was really good and submitted it to some magazine but it was declined, honestly i thought it was incredibly childish even for a 15 year old. I am nothing.