Darkest thoughts you’ve ever had?

Hosking · 26-30, M

The darkest thought I ever had was To jump this asshole I was going to follow him to the bathroom and bash his head in while he was smoking in there. A few days before I heard him talking about having to fight his mothers boyfriend. I realized then that what I was going to do was wrong. It just didn't feel worth it I had a happy home he didn't what ever minor stupid shit he said to me just felt like nothing compared to what he lived through.

PeanutsauntieP1982 · 41-45, F

Well, it was a slow process. You see, a bit over ten years ago I woke up during surgery. I knew from having seen the movie"Awake", that waking up during surgery is very rare, and after it happened to me, I had flashbacks the entire time I was awake, and nightmares about it when I slept. But then about a year and a half later, I finally met another Anesthesia Awareness survivor, and meeting her changed my life. For as bad as my experience was, hers was worse; she woke up during half a dozen surgeries. After she challenged me, and made me make a promise, and after I started making good on those, that's when I stopped being focused so much on my misery, I stopped wanting to kill myself.