Do I deserve to be treated like this?

I have been chatting with this lady for 3 months before CV19. That aside. She goes to her friend's house and what not. I don't have any friends that live in town or I would probably visit them. We live in a small town so grocery shopping is with in 3 stores. I have been waiting to meet her patiently to meet her. Every time we may have a good chance to meet something is always coming up on her end that we don't meet. She will text me for a few minutes the day we are to meet and then poof. She dont answer any texts not even a sorry. Now I will not hear from her for 2 days. I have never treated her badly. Why on earth does she treat me like this? Should I just not text her anymore? Leave her wondering what happened like she does me? Why is it that the guys who do drugs and get drunk or hit thier girlfriend's / wives still have a relationship when they treat them so bad? I am so tired of trying to find reasons to live and get absolute shit. I am done.