When you love someone what does it truly mean?
Would you consider knowing how long they take to do something? To shop in the store? Can sense and feel when something ain’t right or if they are in trouble or experiencing pain?
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Peppa · 31-35, F
When I first met my partner I used to believe we were connected spiritually.
But i realised that he was messing with me so much that he played with my emotions and the various times I felt stressed or ill was because of the things he was doing to me.
He'd demand to know where I was, who I was with and if I delayed he'd ruin my night by either shouting at me and demanding I come home. Or he'd drive there and pick me up.
I used to think in my weird warped mind that, that was how I was supposed to be treated in my life because my parents didn't really show me proper boundaries, mum was too possessive calling all the time and dad didn't care enough not calling hardly at all really.
It was tough.
Now I'm older I'm realising that you can live with someone share the same space, feel connected by respecting each other, sharing the load, kisses and hugging each other often, a reassuring touch on the shoulder. Talking often about anything and everything something and nothing.
There are times when I wonder if I will find that because when I have had it I feel uneasy. I gave into someone who's life was complicated but I trusted that all he told me was true but he lied. It blew up in all our faces really.
But how we were together, resolving things not staying mad at one another for long that was what I needed and still need.
I need not be so afraid.
And maybe I'll find him.
But i think for now I need to find me.
But i realised that he was messing with me so much that he played with my emotions and the various times I felt stressed or ill was because of the things he was doing to me.
He'd demand to know where I was, who I was with and if I delayed he'd ruin my night by either shouting at me and demanding I come home. Or he'd drive there and pick me up.
I used to think in my weird warped mind that, that was how I was supposed to be treated in my life because my parents didn't really show me proper boundaries, mum was too possessive calling all the time and dad didn't care enough not calling hardly at all really.
It was tough.
Now I'm older I'm realising that you can live with someone share the same space, feel connected by respecting each other, sharing the load, kisses and hugging each other often, a reassuring touch on the shoulder. Talking often about anything and everything something and nothing.
There are times when I wonder if I will find that because when I have had it I feel uneasy. I gave into someone who's life was complicated but I trusted that all he told me was true but he lied. It blew up in all our faces really.
But how we were together, resolving things not staying mad at one another for long that was what I needed and still need.
I need not be so afraid.
And maybe I'll find him.
But i think for now I need to find me.
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Peppa · 31-35, F
@SW-User going through a separation. He was but she didn't know. We were together a year. He lived a double life one in seperate rooms non physical. The other 4 nights a week at each others house sharing chores, him helping with bills etc
Peppa · 31-35, F
@MrsCurious maybe I was a cheating bastard in a past life