I Don't Want Kids
Children will always be a great thing to have. Reproduction is good. However, I myself, do not want children of my own.
So why do people close in your life feel like it's necessary to say, "Oh YOU'LL CHANGE YOUR MIND".?
Here is my reasoning behind this; I don't want to make the lifelong commitment of taking care of something. I already have a dog and that's a big commitment for me. I already have nieces and nephews and I'm great with them, so that's enough for me.
When a baby cries it gives it me the WORST anxiety. I can't handle the stress of a baby screaming and unhappy/ or in pain. There's different cries, (when it's hungry, tired, or needing a diaper change), but when those middle of the night screams that happen every once in a while, and nothing seems to help, my mind is in panic mode. I literally helped my sister calm her son down once, but I didn't want to do it, I wanted to get in my car and drive somewhere to get some sleep, cry and scratch myself.
But I know her being a new mother it's not easy to handle alone, and she's just like me except she doesn't show her emotions/anxiety the way I do. So I had to help.
I don't think pregnancy is fun. All the cute mom's out there who had a cute baby bump, are all beautiful, glowing angels. But for me, I would literally hate the 9 full months of nausea, exhaustion, and pain all the time. I've grown through a miscarriage when I was 20, and I was 17 weeks pregnant. My ex and I's plan was to put it up for adoption, however the little person never made it. It was sad but also I hated being pregnant. I never felt good. On top of that, miscarriages are the most PAINFUL things to pass, when your body is trying to get rid of it.
I never want to have children. I would have a million dogs before I give birth. Maybe, MAYBE when I'm much older, I'll adopt if I get lonely but I can't deal with the anxiety that I've dealt with handling someone else's child. That's the worst anxiety I'll ever go through.
So why do people close in your life feel like it's necessary to say, "Oh YOU'LL CHANGE YOUR MIND".?
Here is my reasoning behind this; I don't want to make the lifelong commitment of taking care of something. I already have a dog and that's a big commitment for me. I already have nieces and nephews and I'm great with them, so that's enough for me.
When a baby cries it gives it me the WORST anxiety. I can't handle the stress of a baby screaming and unhappy/ or in pain. There's different cries, (when it's hungry, tired, or needing a diaper change), but when those middle of the night screams that happen every once in a while, and nothing seems to help, my mind is in panic mode. I literally helped my sister calm her son down once, but I didn't want to do it, I wanted to get in my car and drive somewhere to get some sleep, cry and scratch myself.
But I know her being a new mother it's not easy to handle alone, and she's just like me except she doesn't show her emotions/anxiety the way I do. So I had to help.
I don't think pregnancy is fun. All the cute mom's out there who had a cute baby bump, are all beautiful, glowing angels. But for me, I would literally hate the 9 full months of nausea, exhaustion, and pain all the time. I've grown through a miscarriage when I was 20, and I was 17 weeks pregnant. My ex and I's plan was to put it up for adoption, however the little person never made it. It was sad but also I hated being pregnant. I never felt good. On top of that, miscarriages are the most PAINFUL things to pass, when your body is trying to get rid of it.
I never want to have children. I would have a million dogs before I give birth. Maybe, MAYBE when I'm much older, I'll adopt if I get lonely but I can't deal with the anxiety that I've dealt with handling someone else's child. That's the worst anxiety I'll ever go through.
