I Hate When People Pressure Me

Don't you hate it when people have certain expectations of you? It's like my parents can't handle the fact that I want to be my own person instead of clones of themselves. They figure that I'm good with the internet and computers that that is what I should be doing for a living because I'm good at it. But I'm not passionate about it. I keep thinking about this kid who made videos on the internet who died at 13 from undetected heart failure. He just went to bed like any normal kid and never woke up. No one saw it coming. What if I could end up with undetected heart failure and just drop dead? I will have accomplished nothing that I truly wanted to and lived a life that I was forced to live. I only live once so I want to enjoy it. I know people find that to be unrealistic. That enjoyment doesn't pay the bills. But I realize now that I need to love what I'm doing. I don't want to settle for less. One way or another, I want to follow my dreams of acting. If only I got support from my family instead of them making me feel like shit for not wanting me to live their dreams for me. I know I'm smart but like I've said before, it's not what you do that makes you who you are- it's your choices.