I Feel That Something Is Missing From My Life

My friend has been missing since June 13th..... my heart sinks for his family. We preformed multiple grid searches through horrible terrain and over 50,000 acres of state forests, to no avail..... we just want him safe. Now it looks like he was killed. This happens on tv, but you never think it'll be you.... we miss him so much. The cops won't tell me what they found out but they said he is in those woods and that he's not alive...... I'm so broken....