I Keep a Journal
I started keeping one about a year ago because a friend had told me to write what I feel... I was struggling with severe depression back then and my thoughts were driving me to dark places that I didn't like to be.
"Your journal, your feelings, your thoughts - for your eyes only," he said, when I asked him what's the difference between writing a journal and what I was already doing on EP.
So I wrote. I wrote my pain, my thoughts, letters to people who would never read them.
I remember that after about a week of starting it, I woke up in the middle of the night, having the urge to burn that journal. The emotions that I had poured into it were too real, too raw, and I wanted it to go away.
I guess I always had a habit of running away from them before.
I realised that it helped me put my feelings into words, and accept what I was feeling... because there is no backspace. There is no delete. When I wrote it, I made it real and therefore acknowledged it.
I don't write in it very often anymore, but whenever my head gets noisy again and I start to stumble into the darker corners of my mind, I put pen to paper and siphon the pain into words.
"Your journal, your feelings, your thoughts - for your eyes only," he said, when I asked him what's the difference between writing a journal and what I was already doing on EP.
So I wrote. I wrote my pain, my thoughts, letters to people who would never read them.
I remember that after about a week of starting it, I woke up in the middle of the night, having the urge to burn that journal. The emotions that I had poured into it were too real, too raw, and I wanted it to go away.
I guess I always had a habit of running away from them before.
I realised that it helped me put my feelings into words, and accept what I was feeling... because there is no backspace. There is no delete. When I wrote it, I made it real and therefore acknowledged it.
I don't write in it very often anymore, but whenever my head gets noisy again and I start to stumble into the darker corners of my mind, I put pen to paper and siphon the pain into words.
