I Am Trying To Hold On, But I'm Losing It

I have been trying my hardest to hold on to everything and keep it, I tried to give up... but couldn't. I can't say bye, I can't lose everything. I don't want to. Everything that has meant so much to me, just keeps disappearing. I'm just left standing here alone wondering where it all went. Was it just a dream? Or is this a nightmare? I want for it all to have been real and that I am just having a nightmare and will wake up from it and everything will be the way it was. Now... I'm just starting to think it was just a dream. It was all just too good to be true. It'll all be gone one day, and I will be alone then I too, will be gone. It's scary and I'm so scared for it to happen but I am having less and less to hold on to, please give me something, anything to tell me it wasn't a dream, something to hold on to. please I don't want it to disappear, for me to disappear.