I Don't Even Know What I Want Anymore

I don't know where i went wrong. I try to forget my past and i actually have. I try to do good only cuz i expect something good in return. My problems aren't just ending. One after other. I feel like quitting life. Am so tired of everything around. I dont know when will life be good to me. Everything i love just goes away. Isn't this cruel much? And i don't eben know what i wanna say rn?