I Starve Myself

I tjought the same thing. My mother used to make fun of my weight all the time when i was a young teen, and when it got especially ficious during one vacation i got depressed and skipped meals. I discovered the effects and feel of starvation and it was so amazing. It did everything for me. It made me feel strong and i got prettier, it felt great to have a little private secret triumph during a time i felt so alone and terrible. I easily got sucked into eat and started hiding my food my mother packed for my lunch and lying about what i'd eating. I surprisingly found myself lying all the time as people started actually noticing i was losing weight and wasn't eating. I wanted to stop, but I couldn't. I would eat normally than try to fix it with a 3 day fast, and then when I would fail that too i'd feel terrible and worthless. This dietwas supposed to help me and i had lost weight, yet i was right nack to hating my reflection in the mirror. This couldhappen so easily, to anybody. Don't do what i did. You may be feeling a little fat but im sure your beautiful, and when you are ready you will lose the weight in a reasonable and healthy way. Stay strong.