I Am Completely Infatuated With Someone

Very Much So... She talked to me today! It's really the first time I've talked to her, outside of participating in class discussions. I arrived at class pretty early, and she was already there, and smiled at me when I walked in. I sat down, and she started some small talk about the book we were reading. I was nervous to the core, but I'm happy I didn't completely embarrass myself. Soon after, a friend of hers came in, and she started talking to her.

*Sigh* Just the short while that I talked with her, it made my happy, and yet terrified beyond belief. My stomach felt very light throughout the whole conversation. I think she might be catching on that I like her. When the person sitting next to her talks (it's a square setup, so everyone's facing each other, ideal for class conversations), I tend to look at her, just admiring her. I saw her peer over out of the corner of her eye, and I had to quickly look at the person talking, and then she turned and looked at me.

There was a moment in class today, when the sun was covered up partially by the clouds, and it got darker in the room. I don't know what it was about that moment, but I don't think I've ever seen anyone as beautiful as her, in that very moment. I'm smitten.


Note: Reading this over, I can see how this somehow, can be perceived as, well, slightly creepy. I'm simply an awkward human being, and just don't quite know how to approach her yet. So all I can do is sit back and admire her for the wonderful person she is. I have nothing but good intentions :)