I had a straight friend from work ask me today what my ultimate fantasy was. If he only knew the true me. I lied and said a threesome with two girls lol
I can certainly relate to this. I don't care how much media I intake promoting images of acceptance of everyone, anyone living in the real world knows while some may be tolerant of 'queer' types, it certainly isn't universal acceptance. There are real consequences for being 'out'. I don't blame you.