I Am A Bulimic

Being somewhere between bulimia and anorexia is hell. Of course what started my anorexia is my bulimia, but what started my bulimia? Oh a hell lotta shitty stuff amazing how bad things just happen one after another then it's peaceful then it starts all over again. I'm pretty concerned about my health lately I don't keep anything in not event water and it's hard. It's an awful way to live with all those thoughts hunting me and it just sucks. Sometimes I feel like my mother will come back or I'll meet her again soon. Honestly just the thought of that makes me feel scared and makes me want to cry. Having a sister just as bad as she is does not help wt so ever especially when she's in the same room as I am. Sometimes I wish I would pass out and be hospitalized.