I Fell In Love With a Stranger

I have a crush on a man, who i saw online in a movie. He had a guest role, but he isnt really an actor. As i first saw him, i got interested in him and started browsing the web about him. I didnt found much info, but he is very appealing to me. There is something mysterious about him which attracts me. Its been more then a year now, sometimes i check online to see, if there´s something new about him. But there isnt much really. Im not about to find his accounts and contact him. I dont want that. I dont really want to tell him my feelings. There are so many reasons, i cant even reach out to him, because he has no real profile online. Theres nothing i can do to contact him or show him affection online. Its just like a pointless dream, which will never come true.
I have no idea if someoe has expririenced something like this. I fantasize a lot about him. I dream as if i met him somewhere in the city, by the way he lives far away from me, not even in my state, and we meet by accident and we develope feelings for each other and end up loving each other. I know i sound like a teenager, but its just who i am. I am a dreamer...Sometimes i get sad for no reason. life is so short, we will never meet and he will never know that i love him. But then again, even if i would try and contact him or meet him , the failure of rejection will allways scare me. What, if im not his type? What if he nicely wants only to be friends with me? I cant even imagine to get that far and to be someone who he can laugh at inside, knowing how much i adore him. He will play me and make me miserable , if he knew how i feel about him. And i dont want that. So, here i am , having a pointless crush on a man who doesnt know my existance.