I Feel Meh

So... this guy. I don't really want to weigh down people in real life with the drama so I figured I'd just vent about it all on here lol. So we met on a dating app, in like late November/early December. We were texting all the time and he said he wanted us to meet in real life. I still live with my family at the moment, so I said I felt like I needed to tell them first out of respect, and also bc they are nosy as heck and would find out anyways if I left the house because I never do anything 😂

Anyways, my family went through a rough time & I didn't want to add stress so it ended up being around the beginning of February when I told people. So I told the guy, I was like I told my family, let's meet up. It was right around Valentine's Day, so I figured he'd ask for something then, but he didn't. (Should have been a red flag)

So we met closer to the end of February. And we ended up meeting 2 more times since then, just for like dinner & going to the movies and stuff. He was pleasant to be around. Always paid for it and held doors open and that type of stuff.

But when we were texting he just started to seem like he wasn't as interested. Our last date was on a Monday and it was like the next Sunday before he even brought up meeting again, so like almost 2 weeks. And maybe it's just too old fashioned or something but I've always believed that the guy should be the one chasing the girl. If that's not your cup of tea, like dude I understand but that's what I believe.

Anyways, I got tired of waiting around for him. I brought it up to him a few times, asking if he was still interested & what was going on and everything and he basically brushed me off. So I finally was just like dude, I like you but I'm not gonna throw myself at you. If you want this to happen then actually do something or like I'm out bc I don't want to sound selfish but I could find another guy who would be constantly asking to hang out and stuff, like I just didn't feel like a priority to him (even though he was a priority to me) and stuff.

So I basically went off on him in the nicest way possible lol, but still making my feelings clear. Anyways, that was late Saturday night, and he replied like "oh wow I guess I'm just a horrible person and blah blah blah" and I haven't heard anything since. The whole point of the text was that I didn't feel wanted, so if he's thinking I'm gonna text like "Oh I'm sorry please forgive me I need you"....well then that would be dead wrong lol. I'm at the point where yeah having a boyfriend would be cool, but I'll still thrive without one. Anyways, I don't know what will end up happening because it is still all pretty fresh lol I just really needed to get it off my chest.