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Home Alone.

well this is part one. I have been by myself day time, for hours. but never by myself for a night. I have the house to myself. I cooked dinner, made double of what I could eat, threw a lot of food. and watched movies back to back... and I think I could get used to this, being by myself. except for the occasional missing somebody, checking for texts that won't come. I am totally good. this is good.

its like having a pity party, all by myself. telling myself this is not bad, I could just buy myself a couple of cats to grow old with. watching movies, reading books... dreaming of impossible things, of romance and love and happy endings. I can totally do this... yes I can.. yes I am telling myself. making peace with an impossible situation.