I Would Love To Write
its a festival, here in India. and everyone is celebrating. Sitting here in the temple, amongst bhajans, I wish I could put a picture, I clicked one just for this purpose. People are singing and dancing. Everybody welcoming the lord into their midst. Its a happy happy site. Celebrations in my country are beautiful. One has to witness it themselves to get the feel of it. It is cant expressed in words. And stupid App wont let me upload pictures.
I was sitting in a corner, smiling to myself, trying to enjoy the festivities. wanting to go dance with the rest of the crowd. I really would love nothing more than to be happy. I want to be. for its a happy day.
But here I am, tears streaming down from my eyes. I would think after two days, they should have run out. but oh no! I have an ocean full off salty water, never ending. I sit in the corner and pray, pray for forgiveness. one that won't be forthcoming any time. I pray for strength, to hold myself together, one more time. If only the man upstairs would listen. I dont want to be the only one crying while everyone else is celebrating. I wish he would take pity on the poor stupid girl who does idiotic things to drive away people she loves. After all it shouldnt be all that hard? listening to me? or maybe it is,why else would I be asked to go away.
I was sitting in a corner, smiling to myself, trying to enjoy the festivities. wanting to go dance with the rest of the crowd. I really would love nothing more than to be happy. I want to be. for its a happy day.
But here I am, tears streaming down from my eyes. I would think after two days, they should have run out. but oh no! I have an ocean full off salty water, never ending. I sit in the corner and pray, pray for forgiveness. one that won't be forthcoming any time. I pray for strength, to hold myself together, one more time. If only the man upstairs would listen. I dont want to be the only one crying while everyone else is celebrating. I wish he would take pity on the poor stupid girl who does idiotic things to drive away people she loves. After all it shouldnt be all that hard? listening to me? or maybe it is,why else would I be asked to go away.
31-35, F