I Hate Living At Home

I hate living at home, I live with 2 of my brothers and my sister. My sister physically and verbally assaulted me ever since I was young. She would slap me even and public and called me horrible things. I remember her making fun of me and my father and saying I will never amount to anything like him. And as I young girl I tried to defend myself but just took all the insults she thrown at me. Shes over 21 now and acts like she had no clue what she did, I told her about the abuse in the past and she said I dont remember that. A lot of the people who assaulted me and humiliated me said they cannot remember it, but I do. Her and my cousin used to team up and just make fun of me, obviously this affected me and I still suffer from chronic depression from all of this.

I told my mom I do not want to live with her and her boyfriend ever, due to the abuse. She has constantly over the years called me a freak, loser, weirdo, stuff like that. And my mother thinks its ok because she said she did not remember that. And family is so important to her.. She says it doesnt matter because it is in the past... But she does not understand the humiliation she put me through and the lasting pain it always had on me. Even throughout my teens she continued to bully me and it ended up with fights between us. I do not want anything to do with my sister, I rather live in a homeless shelter or even at a random guys house.

I can write paragraphs about all the abuse she put me through. And know I have to live with her boyfriend, being around them makes me vomit. She is not a nice person, she is a bully and my mother cannot accept that because she has not been traumatized like me. Imagine having the person who is supposed to love you and care for your, slap you and constantly put you down.