Anxious on the inside

I can be grateful that I don't show my anxiety "out loud"

This is a real blessing, because we have all seen people fall apart in front of others and at the worse of times.

One particular incident stands out in my mind.

DHS and a woman who lost it completely and loudly protested her innocence in front of her child,the staff,and any onlookers.
I was embarrassed but also had compassion for her.It just wasn't the best place or time to let anxiety have its free reign.

My mind may try to get me to "lose it", but my intellect usually stops me as I know the outcome of making a scene will be.

I have a couple of times left a line of crowded places as I panicked.
Noticeably, certainly, embarrassing,yes, loudly,no.

Both incidents were years apart.

Mostly my mind may be going round and round, but you wouldn't know from observation.

I am thankful for that and for the knowledge that comes with age that you don't always need to do as your emotional upheaval dictates.

Hoping everyone has a good day and your anxiety,if you have that,is light.