I Am Greatful For Every Moment of My Life

[b]"When I was a child, I spoke like a child, thought like a child, reasoned like a child;now that I am an [i]adult,[/i] I have finished with childish ways" I Corininthians 14: 11
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I can be very silly, but I like to think at the core of my being I am very deep.

It is fun at times to act like a child.
For a minute I can forget about being responsible or my obligations.
But, I would not want to be childish all the time.

When someone lashes out, calls names, tries to discredit someone, shows their petty jealousies, tries to get even, bullies, or won't be serious when it is a situation calling for it, then we say they are childish.
Why? Because children reason from a point of selfishness and will continue to do so if not taught otherwise.
They speak a language of self and think primarily of self and it serves them for awhile.
But, we never wish them to stay there and continue to live a life preoccupied with only their own selfish desires leading and controlling them.

I cannot let others in if only I matter.
If only my opinion matters.
Like it or not their is some compromising that takes place in healthy mature relationships.
I don't have to lose myself, just become a less selfish or rigid self; a better self.

I can be rigid in my thinking and that is my discovery today.
I need to change that.

I could throw a fit like a child and demand that I am right or make excuses to why being rigid is more grown up then being selfish, but actually being so rigid is selfish in away, it refuses to reason with others or see their point of view.
Not that I will compromise my core beliefs, but I can at least listen and explain a little better my own point of view.

So, I will strive to play like a child and have that child like wonder.
But, I want to reason and think like an adult.