I Am So Tired Of Crying

That moment when you lay there and you know that you are fixing to start crying and the thoughts are horrible and you just want them to go away.... you feel scares and panicked and would do anything for them not to fall. You just want someone there with you to say it's okay and you're not alone, even though its not true, but just hearing someone say that and knowing that at least one person seems to care than being totally alone in this darkness. I just want this feeling gone