I think I'm going crazy...

No matter how hard I try, I just can't forget about him. Every time I think about everything, it keeps changing. At the same Time I love him and hate him. I just want him to understand what it's done to me. I want to be told it's okay. I'm sorry, and I'd do anything to prove it. Ethan, I hope you will stumble across this one day and realize I'm really sorry.