Sobreity

Maybe this will sound judgmental, I will never mean it that way

I've made the decision today to become sober.
I dont even know why I express this on anonymous social media
It's been a long time since I haven't felt jaded by social media somehow

If I learn to look I have family and friends, and I love them.
I won't miss the conversations I have to make up for myself
---and yes, even in the world of amends, some judgments I have felt here, I actually want to care towards, but they are not always mine.

I'm guessing some won't miss me here, but if I am to become sober I need to take some time away.
You have to understand your own triggers and also revalue what people give you.

My biggest mistake has been not seeing the value those who love me give
That has a way to spilling differently; where it affects those who have nothing to do with you

I want people to wish me hope, love, luck. Those I already connect with in private message I really will try to keep up with you if I haven't expressed already (which I haven't)

I appreciate all of you, even if we aren't close...all love