I Am Grieving A Loss

So last Saturday was my childhood friend's memorial service. It was very beautiful. Some of us wore orange in honor of him since he loved the color Orange. Our childhood friends and I said something about him. It was hard but we did it. We saw our former teacher from our elementary school days. It was good to see everyone but NOT at a sad time. We saw pictures and videos of him and he had a great life. He was so funny and very entertaining. His mom said he had a seizure and mist of bumped his head they don't know what happened. It isn't fair that he only got to live 29 years on this planet but at least he had a wonderful fulfilling life. His family is devistated of his loss and so are we. It's so hard since we've known him since the age of five. We brown down crying. He passed February 19. Yesterday I was crying and...yeah. I don't like crying and being sad but I know it's normal. I was told it's okay to be sad and cry sometimes but not all the time. It's so hard. He is still with us on our spirits and it will take time. RIP childhood friend. 1989-2019 😢😭💖💖🧡🧡