I Broke Down

So earlier, my brother said "Sorry buddy, you're gay" and even as a joke or not, I get offended. I decided to do some revenge and throw his candy. He didn't see it as revenge and he did his revenge messing up my room just to make a mess. He kept saying that I shouldn't get offended and I told him my story of why I can't stand being called gay. "Almost raped." and I said he is annoying. He started annoying me more and I decided to say that he's the reason why my mental health is bad. Later he wouldn't stop talking to I said "Shut the F*** up" and I tried my best not to say the N-word. I went walking around outside and later on cried a few times. I came back and told him off a few times and I said "You better be happy I broke down" and he continued off being rude and said "Dad doesn't care" and that's where he broke the line.

I won't be forgiving him for a while.