I Am Restless
There is a really great expression. "I have my family of blood, and my family of choice. Those are the ones that make up my family"
Every night that I sit alone in my room. Without anyone there. Or any time I spend without my family, wich for me consists of my family of choice, I get restless.
I should be with my family. My room is so empty without any of them. I feel like I don't want to do much, just another useless night spent alone without people I love.
And as I am this now grown up individual in some aspects stuck in my reality.
My reality consists in me eating and living with and as my parents want it. I have my own, choices, standards, life and family and I can live none of it until I move out. Wich will proboably be another 6 years. So all I can do with this feeling is welcome it for another few years.
Be restless, feel like I can't be me, make my own choices and feel quite out of place.
Another 6 years before I can finally be in a place I call home.
Every night that I sit alone in my room. Without anyone there. Or any time I spend without my family, wich for me consists of my family of choice, I get restless.
I should be with my family. My room is so empty without any of them. I feel like I don't want to do much, just another useless night spent alone without people I love.
And as I am this now grown up individual in some aspects stuck in my reality.
My reality consists in me eating and living with and as my parents want it. I have my own, choices, standards, life and family and I can live none of it until I move out. Wich will proboably be another 6 years. So all I can do with this feeling is welcome it for another few years.
Be restless, feel like I can't be me, make my own choices and feel quite out of place.
Another 6 years before I can finally be in a place I call home.
