I Have Experienced Loss
this love I have for my little ones, it's so big and trapped inside me, no where to go, it can't escape me, I can't let it go, there's no where to send it.
I sit here and hold these bears, it's the closest I'll ever come to holding them. Perfect heart shaped urns inside them with their names and birth dates engraved
This love, it's so big I can feel it, it's the knot in My throat because I long to call their names but when I do the response will be silence. It manifests as the moisture in my eyes that rolls down cheeks because my eyes long to see them growing still inside of me. The aches and pains in my body are a constant reminder that they're gone.
I miss them, and I can't help it cry, that's all I ever do.
I take these bears to bed with me because that's The closest I'll ever get to be to them, I clutch their blankets in my hands because it still carries their scent. I feel lost today like every other day, I move through the day because I have to, when my heart only longs for The pain to stop, the tears to stop rolling, this knot to ease up and for my little angels to sleep soundly in my arms.
I hope there is a heaven because that's the only thing that keeps me pushing forward the hope that one day all that I've suffered and endured will be worth it when I'm reunited with my babies again.
I sit here and hold these bears, it's the closest I'll ever come to holding them. Perfect heart shaped urns inside them with their names and birth dates engraved
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This love, it's so big I can feel it, it's the knot in My throat because I long to call their names but when I do the response will be silence. It manifests as the moisture in my eyes that rolls down cheeks because my eyes long to see them growing still inside of me. The aches and pains in my body are a constant reminder that they're gone.
I miss them, and I can't help it cry, that's all I ever do.
I take these bears to bed with me because that's The closest I'll ever get to be to them, I clutch their blankets in my hands because it still carries their scent. I feel lost today like every other day, I move through the day because I have to, when my heart only longs for The pain to stop, the tears to stop rolling, this knot to ease up and for my little angels to sleep soundly in my arms.
I hope there is a heaven because that's the only thing that keeps me pushing forward the hope that one day all that I've suffered and endured will be worth it when I'm reunited with my babies again.
36-40, F
