I Have Experienced Loss

September brings my season of dreams to its climax sometimes they are filled with terror, and sometimes with visions of a life so normal that even after waking just for a very few moments everything seems as it should be and it is this life that is the dream not that one. for those few seconds I am happy again but it is nothing more than an illusion promising me all that was lost but only for the briefest of time, then I get to lose her all over again. I would live those same few seconds over and over until the end of time if I could be spared the reality, or I could live without ever dreaming again, I know neither is possible so the best I can do is to live my life and hope, perhaps nothing is lost forever.