I Don't Miss You

I used to. I had very strong feelings for you. As a friend. Maybe more. But I definitely felt your absence when you decided you didn't want to be in my life anymore. But I was blinded. I didn't see all the traits you shared with the people who have hurt me. So, I don't miss you anymore. I realize now that you weren't who I thought you were. I always try to see the best in people. I also try to encourage people to improve and be better. Living is progress. I was sincerely one of your friends. You didn't have to buy me. I wasn't using you. I really just liked spending time with you. Talking to you. Gaming with you. But you ended that. And I definitely held a grudge. I'm moving on now. I don't miss you anymore.

And to the other guy who swears up and down that I will miss him when he's gone. I won't. The feelings I had for you, you extinguished. You destroyed. I often imagine what life would be like if you were dead. How much easier it'd be. Which sounds terrible even to me. But it is how I've felt on many occasions when you decided I wasn't worth your respect.