I Am Not Close With My Father

All we can be is who we are.
I can admire that you did not change for his sake. That too takes strength. Knowing yourself and being you inspire of knowing what would impress someone else.

The greatest quality any one can have is to know oneself. Next greatest quality is to be able to love and accept others EVEN if and when they are different.

I know my parents loved me, but I know that even tho I may have been the “favorite” my parents definitely showed ME, or I could also see how very much they loved my siblings. It’s an odd thing as children, no matter how much they loved me, I too could feel as if they lived My brother or sister more than they loved me. They were very hard on the oldest and learned from their parenting errors with each next sibling born they did things a little different.

Also it is normal to feel disappointed when someone-anyone- is getting attention. From those we feel we are in competition with- even when there is no competition. Sometimes we think we are the center of someone’s love when people can love multiple people differently. Think of work, school, and any situation where people interact with others. Why is it disappointing if we aren’t being the center of attention ? It’s normal.

I think you’re doing great to be aware of differences in attention and still recognize love..Accepting it. Embrace it! That acceptance will be powerful to your father .He is imperfect too.

I think it’s even greater that you still know and love yourself.Loving yourself. And loving what you do Is what attracts other towards you.

Your words tell me you know this. As an outsider lookin at your writing, I just want to affirm what you know. Remind you that your feelings are normal.