I Idk

I am needing to vent and speak to people , i am asking for advice . so my entire life i have been abused by everyone in my life it has affected me in ways where i have strangers in public trying to abuse me . it's like idk how to speak up for stand up for myself anymore , i forgot how to since a few years ago it was about three years ago , i had just gotten out of an abusive marriage . before that my mother ,siblings and family friends would always ridicule me and mistreat me . as a child kids and teachers would mistreat me at school as well . i never have fit in anywhere and now as an adult it's getting to me so much i go out and anywhere i go have cashiers or other customer service employees trying to bully me it's like i am always targeted anywhere that i go and i'm tired of having to stand up for myself everyday . why can't i go out normally and not have to deal with these issues like everyone else doesn't have to ? this happens to me alot as i'm always seen alone by myself idk what to do anymore there's been times where i've snapped on people because i'm so fed up of their shit i am practicing how to be assertive and speak up i just don't know how to feel strong anymore any advice ?

xixgun · M

General courtesy and a modicum of respect towards others has been gone for a while in this country.

That being said, if you've been abused as much as you say, it's very natural to see abuse coming from everywhere (even if it was simply the standard rude attitude that they give everyone).

All I can say is - get pissed. People who like to dump on others always seem supremely stunned when the recipient stands up and (verbally) knocks the shit out of them. They will then act aghast and play the victim. "You're such an asshole! What's wrong with you?!" They will have completely dismissed and forgotten their own actions which brought them to this point.