I Miss My Grandma
My grandma just died on my birthday two days ago.
My grandma missed her kidney dialysis to care for my grandpa who was sick as he had a urinary block. She was also sick and quit breathing. They did cpr for who knows how long.
I got a phone call from my Aunt to go to the hospital and I did. I was gone for over 6 hours.
She was dying. She was being kept alive by tubes. She had blood in her lungs. It was horrible seeing blood leak out of her mouth.
I told my aunt to keep her hooked up until everyone could say her last goodbyes. My grandma did NOT want to be resuscitated.
She was in the room when my mom had me c-section and I held her while they unplugged her.
We weren't allowed to see as they took out her breathing tubes.
She way her mouth shook was horrible. The breaths coming out of her, the rasping was horrible. I decided to hold her hand until the end. She was there when I was born and I was there as she died.
My husband said she was already died but it still felt good to be there as her body quit working 100%.
I didn't cry and I don't know why. I told relatives even when my aunt said no. I comforted my cousins and made sure my kids and husband got their last goodbyes.
I'm not sure how the family will cope. My aunt has bipolar and isn't super strong. She is overwhelmed with guilt and am having one of my cousins to help her out.
My grandma missed her kidney dialysis to care for my grandpa who was sick as he had a urinary block. She was also sick and quit breathing. They did cpr for who knows how long.
I got a phone call from my Aunt to go to the hospital and I did. I was gone for over 6 hours.
She was dying. She was being kept alive by tubes. She had blood in her lungs. It was horrible seeing blood leak out of her mouth.
I told my aunt to keep her hooked up until everyone could say her last goodbyes. My grandma did NOT want to be resuscitated.
She was in the room when my mom had me c-section and I held her while they unplugged her.
We weren't allowed to see as they took out her breathing tubes.
She way her mouth shook was horrible. The breaths coming out of her, the rasping was horrible. I decided to hold her hand until the end. She was there when I was born and I was there as she died.
My husband said she was already died but it still felt good to be there as her body quit working 100%.
I didn't cry and I don't know why. I told relatives even when my aunt said no. I comforted my cousins and made sure my kids and husband got their last goodbyes.
I'm not sure how the family will cope. My aunt has bipolar and isn't super strong. She is overwhelmed with guilt and am having one of my cousins to help her out.
36-40, F
